Butterfly Days

I'm a big believer in my body's ability to heal itself. I hurt my back pretty badly a couple of years ago and, given that the oxy they gave me at the hospital did fuck all, I decided that the best thing to do was to let my body rest and fix itself. It eventually did and I was able to walk and work again. Which was a very good thing given a) how bad I smelled and b) if I don't work I don't get paid. 

Somedays it's my brain that needs a rest. To curl up small and eat nice food for me to be able to process how I'm feeling and reset. Like a caterpillar right before it turns into a butterfly. I rest one day so I can be a beautiful strong butterfly the next. 

Before my journey towards getting sober, I often use these days as an excuse for sleeping off a hangover and getting nothing done. It wasn't rest I was giving my body, it was a chance to get the countless units of alcohol that I had fed myself the night before out of my system. Unsurprisingly, this didn't exactly make me feel better the next day and quite often the hangover would still linger. 

Now I'm getting sober (10 days and counting) these butterfly days are feeling slightly different. For one thing, I can still wake up early. My boyfriend wakes up at the wank ass of dawn to get ready for work and so I started waking up at the same time and my body has now adjusted to a new schedule. Unsurprisingly I'm getting a lot more done, so I'm trying to keep that up. 

This meant that my most recent butterfly day was a lot more productive than usual. Yes, I mostly spent the day in bed, but I managed to brush my teeth, shower and do my morning skincare. I was also able to eat something that wasn't deep-fried and delivered in an Uber Eats bag which made me feel even better. I rested, read my book and wrote in my journal. The only thing I didn't do was write a blog post, but that's why I have posts scheduled ahead of time. 

This new kind of rest day is showing me even more reasons to stay sober. There is no point in resting if it doesn't make me feel any better and a day wasted resting to sleep off a hangover is still a day wasted. Now I'm realising that not only is my journey towards sobriety helping me to be more productive, but it's also helping me to rest and relax. 

Stay safe on the road

Jess